During times of transition, we often feel we are moving from one thing next in a linear way. Like, buying a home after renting, or moving into a higher level position at work, or even in grief...having to "move on" after the death of a loved one.
But is it possible to be in transition and be attached to things not in a linear but in a messy kind of way?
I say yes!
This weekend I am in Denver to finally pack all my things up from my condo and rent it out. It has taken me over a year to decide this because 1) I didn't want to make an irrational decision before I knew I liked my Western Slope life; 2) I loved coming back for long weekends and staying in my condo; and 3) I didn't know if I wanted to rent or buy. After much thought and conversations with friends and family, I decided to rent it out for some extra income and also so that I don't have to give it up...just yet. And my teariness I have felt on and off when I look around my condo tells me I have made the right decision, that I still love it just enough to not say goodbye to it for good. And I don't know quite yet what I will be saying hello to, either. Buying a home on the Western Slope? Continuing renting and looking toward the future? Someday making my New Mexico dream come true?
So here I sit in two worlds. The first is the city world, where there are so many people, so much to do, and so much opportunity. It is the world I grew up in, the world I know in and out. The second is the rural world, where there is a slower pace of life, not as many people or job opportunities but ample opportunities to slow down, savor the hiking and scenic drives and flavors of a rural lifestyle. I have to say...I love them both!
During times of transition and change, it is okay to be "in-between." You don't always have to make concrete decisions, you can slowly make your way through change while savoring all those parts of life you really love. That is my plan, anyway!
