Home is Where the Heart Is

If you have had any sort of conversation with me, you probably know I have been myself in transition and have probably talked to you about my ability or inability to make decisions. Last night, however, I had a bit of an epiphany, and the epiphany is this:

I left Denver for Delta for both work and a lifestyle that I knew I would love. A Denver native, I find I am nostalgic for the "old Denver" and not totally loving this growing city, where my favorite past haunts have closed for more upscale or hip places and traffic where driving 5 miles takes 30 minutes. Delta is a totally different world. It's slower, smaller, quieter; it has established roots and pretty fiercely devoted people. I can also drive to, get my grocery shopping done, and be home in less than 30 mins. Or drive 20 miles in 20 minutes.

But in Denver, I also moved from so many people that I love! And from my little condo that I grow more attached to each time I visit and enjoy the fact that it's mine, not a rental.  In Delta, I have made some wonderful new friends and my work allows me to engage with absolutely amazing clients who themselves work hard everyday to make sense out of life and death.

Last night, I got to thinking....do I really at this point need to "settle in" to one place? If the worst thing in the world is that I love of a lot of people in different places then let me say I am completely blessed! The only limitations I put on myself during this time of transition and change are my own limitations, or perhaps the influence of others' opinions. If I am defining "settled" in one box I am forgetting that there are many other definitions and ways to be "settled." Because what is life but a series of changes and transitions everyday anyway?

My all time favorite quote is by Pema Chodron, a Buddhist teacher, author, nun...

For me, I have an inkling that what I need to know is how to live, accept, and love fully in the moment. What does this quote say to you?